Today is beautiful, but it’s not just the 84-degree weather. Each Friday during the summer employees at the company where I work can leave at 1 p.m. So not only did I take by green and blue striped heels for a warm walk uptown, a co-worker and I went out to lunch and visited the “American Woman: Fashioning a New Identity” exhibit at the Met.
Now after stepping through decades of women’s history and hard work, I’m resting on my couch, fan blowing on me from the window, with my feet up as I type away the afternoon sipping Diet Coke. This is an ideal moment for me.
Having finished a half day’s work and experiencing some of the fabulous things the city has to offer (including a white bean and arugula salad on Madison Avenue and historic designs by Jeanne Lanvin at the museum), I know it’s time to chill, literally and figuratively.
And, it’s fitting because it supports my quest to take time for myself and to appreciate living in New York as I pledged in “New Season, New Changes.” Getting a little help with my summer work schedule doesn’t hurt either.
As I sneak a pillow under my feet and the fan blows between my blue-polished toes, I can’t help but feel like I’m fulfilling my mission to be a happier, more relaxed person. Yet, in reality, I have to admit, it’s been a challenge to stress less and relax more. It’s funny how trying not to stress can be a source of anxiety.
Over the last couple weeks I’ve tried to live by new mantras of waking earlier, not sweating the small stuff and seeking fun activities. Well, finding fun is the easy part, but then finding time to work, write, exercise, spend time with friends AND sleep is tricky. And, once I’m doing all those things, limited sleep makes the little things like a being pushed in the subway, or forgetting your cell phone at home, pretty annoying.
What’s worse is feeling like I’m failing at my own personal challenge, when at the end of each day, I realize I’ve only achieved some of the goals for that day. At night I wondered, how can so many women lead amazing, productive and happy lives and not feel exhausted? Is it possible? And then, when I think I’m about to figure it out, I fall asleep with a book in my face and the light on.
The next morning I’d try again to strike the balance between, work, play, personal relationships and fitness, again wondering why there’s only 24-hours in a day.
But, it’s funny, after today, I feel like I’m on the right track, taking one step closer to achieving this goal to change my lifestyle. Except, the difference between today and the past week is, I didn’t force it. My schedule allowed it and I didn’t mind that I only managed to check off most of the items on my list — to be happy, I don’t necessarily have to do it all.
I think that’s what I learned today. Feeling content with your life isn’t always about doing everything right, it’s about making time to feel right about what you’re doing.
For those of you who are also on mission to improve your life by getting up early, taking time to laugh, or any other new goals I mentioned in my previous post, don’t fret, change takes time.
Like women’s rights and fashions, which continue to evolve over decades, change can be beautiful, though subtle, one moment at a time…if you let it.